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Thursday, September 29, 2005

Woah. There is this mighty problem with either my comp, or Blogger. I am not really sure what is the problem, but hope it gets fixed up really soon. *prays very hard*

Anyway, we have finally gotten back our prelim results. One word to describe my results: Pathetic and horrible(Ok. Make that 3 words.) This prelim had brought me GREAT disappointment, and YES, I was one of those whom Peacock labelled as the people who will go nowhere and the only place they can go is ITE. YES, that's me! I had felt so DAMN demoralised by what he had said, and the results made everything much worse. Both my Elementary and Additional Maths were ONE pathetic mark away from a D7(which is the minimum requirement to go into JC or Poly). Most of my marks could be "upgraded" to another grade, because they were only ONE mark away from the upper grade. And Mrs Poh said there's not gonna be moderation(Don't think I can get into first 3 months even with moderation. Haha~) I have performed below expectations for this exams, and I know a lot of other people didn't do as well too. Just wanna say there is another last chance for us, the BIG O's. That's the real target that we are aiming for, and not this (dreadful)prelims.

Now that I can't possibly get into JC for the first 3 months, can only think bout working. BUT firstly, before i worry bout all these, I have to get my (big)butt down on the chair in front of my study desk and start studying! Sad to say, after I have recieved my results, I no longer wanted to study. This is not another excuse not to study, I seriously didn't want to touch any of my books, cos well... I had studied for the prelims and yet I got such pathetic results. It's as if, I didn't get what was supposed to be my "fruit of labour". I have got to review my studying methods. I'm studying hard, but I'm definitely not studying soft. LOL. I mean studying smart. =P

One more thing, I didn't have anyone to turn to when my results were terrible! Either the people I was about to turn to need comforting themselves, or they were too busy gloating over their results. So I only sms-ed SF, as both of us got ard the same results for Elementary Maths. Hurhur. <- This part of the entry is SUPER random. But I just felt like writing it. =) Guess I shall be writing till here. Don't miss me too much. =X

(SHIANe,12:14 PM)

Sunday, September 25, 2005

whee! it's my 120th entry~ hip hip hurray!~ yeaa. although i've had this blog for bout a year, there are only 120 entries. WHICH MEANS... i havent been updating regularly(obviously). i'll try to update regularly if i even bother to log into blogger. haha~ =P

anyway, i bought M.A.G.E yesterday! cos it was Genjyo Sanzo on the cover! AHHHH. and the magazine also featured SHAMAN KING(besides SAIYUKI RELOAD and SAIYUKI RELOAD GUNLOCK). all my favourite animes! =D yupp. then there were also saiyuki and shaman king posters la. so tempting~ so i borrowed $$ from sx without hesitation. =x think im paying back in instalments.

oh ya. yesterday we(as in all the sec 4's and 5's) had our CCA cards signed. and we also found out our ranks! my rank is S.SGT leh. dont play-play. it was really surprising, judging by the fact that i got scolded by gooi ALMOST every band prac. =x yaa. a price to pay. lols.

i was really happy yesterday, and i laughed so much in the library tt i started hiccup-ing. non-stop. -.- and it was so loud somemore. haha! i only stopped hiccup-ing after L.O.G had gone their separate ways(no more sx to make me laugh mah) yupp. the happy things of yesterday seriously make up for all the unhappy things that i had experienced yesterday. really glad bout it. thank god! =)

and ONE more thing: I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

(SHIANe,3:40 AM)

Friday, September 23, 2005

yeah~ prelims are finally over! what a relief! =D haha~ BUT. one thing though, we would be getting back our english papers tmr. =S it is really scary just thinking bout it. once we score badly for english, we are like. . DEAD. oh man.
anyway, from tmr onwards, we are going to have this.. dunno what time-table. just know that there is only one boring lesson after another and there is NO MORE pe. my favourite pe gone. school is meaningless now(to make it a bit exaggerated.) yaa. it's seriously boring la. all lessons and the only time for us to have a break(and sometimes we still gonna use this break to study) is RECESS. blehh. -.-

today im just going to slack the rest of the day away. yay. but im really tired. doubt i can stay up. =P

(SHIANe,8:17 AM)

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

was thinking about something worth thinking. haha~ but i still havent got any answers out of my drained brain. =P anyway, ONE MORE PAPER LEFT till the end of prelims! *jumps and dances ard* not that im gonna pass anything, im just really happy that prelims are gonna be ooover~ =D

had emaths paper 2 and lit paper 2 today. i feel that everything's gonna be a flop la, even though i FINALLY managed to manage time well during the lit exam. =X just be happy that the papers are finally over! whee~ tmr dont need go sch~ but im still wishing the bio students all the best for their papers. =)

this sunday im going to try my best to persuade my mum to let me go to church. she is surely going to show me a black face, but hope she doesnt explode or something. =\ yaa. maybe going to east coast park with sharine and tracy. see how first. haha~ ya la. i think i am writing till here.

STILL thinking bout something worth thinking. lols.

(SHIANe,2:40 PM)

Monday, September 19, 2005

im totally pissed off right now. i didnt expect my mum to take such EXTREME measures to prevent me from gg to church! what a fake person, always saying that she gives her children freedom to choose whatever path they want to take. YA RIGHT. when i said i wanted to go poly, her face darkens and she would say all sorts of things to make me feel guilty if i ever get my butt into poly. when i said i wanted to go to church, her face darkens(again), and she accused me of going dating. pleaaaaase man. i think i am most probably be the last girl on earth who is unattached! she even locked me inside my own house. $%#^&^&^%#@#!

so now im stuck at home. a very pissed off yeeshian is a prisoner in her own home! can only study le lor. cant even have a form of relaxation. ARGH.

(SHIANe,2:17 AM)

Saturday, September 17, 2005

fell asleep while waiting for peacemaker last night! my mum said she went to wake me up, but then i supposedly said i was too tired and dont wanna watch. blehh. i wanted to watch!! the unconscious side of me had said that. sheesh. not surprising la, cos i slept at 2am the day before and woke up at 4.30am. ~_~

anyway, i didnt have to go to school today, cos today is the chinese papers. due to my lack of sleep for the past few days, i slept at 10.15 and woke at 11 this morning. =D alrightey. been looking for things to do since morning, and was quite unsucessful la. haha~ so decided to come and update blog(before i become all stressed out for the exams again)

there are some papers left to go. quite scary papers la actually. chem, a maths and lit are already very scary. sianz. lucky a maths have one day to study la. good good. haha~ must use the weekend to concentrate on chem lit and e maths. yupp. =) this sunday going to church, but dont think im going to bible studies after that, cos shud go home and study.

i think i shall be writing till here. the prelims are gonna be a TOTAL FLOP. yay. =D

(SHIANe,5:57 AM)

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

this is the first time im feeling so stressed up over exams. i dont know why la. all the feelings of hopelessness. this is the first time i feel so sian while online.
i came online because i had no choice, have to get the answers for the physics papers. BY THE WAY, mr loh didnt put ALL the answers on elms as he had said he would.

SIGH.

(SHIANe,5:59 AM)

Thursday, September 08, 2005

woah. these few days i've been like so tired. as in i can sleep, wake up, and sleep, and sleep and sleep. that is how tired i really am. anyways, my grandfather's in the hospital. i have no idea what is really going on, but thank God it's nothing serious.

been really busy with trying to study. i find it very hard to really cram everything inside my teeny weeny brain(if there is any at all :P). i believe that i can at least try my best at this exams. actually, i dont have much to update. life is boring when i stay at home most of the time.

tmr is a day of packed schedules again. so many things to do yet so little time. sounds familiar? everyone should be experiencing the same dilemma as me. ^^

(SHIANe,2:35 PM)

Monday, September 05, 2005

it's been a pretty fun day today, and i didnt study again. cos most of the day was spent outside at the church. alright, i shall start from the very beginning of the day. my tuition starts at 9 right, and i woke up at around.. 8.45am?! i was one of the latest to reach tuition. heee. oh well. hope history doesnt repeat itself again eh. :)
anyway, after tuition went to eat porridge with qiuyan. haha. the porridge nice leh! and it's only 2 bucks. very worth it. a must-try! ;) it's at the yew tee shopping centre food court. :P

rushed to supposedly meet sarah. but landed at some unknown bus-stop because i had taken a bus in the WRONG direction. this is the first time i see a bus with 2 different destinations. like one 913 goes in this direction, the other 913 goes in another direction. and i was fortunate enough to board the wrong bus. had to brave thru a bit of rain. hehe~ but it's ok. it's kinda refreshing. :P reached the church and felt totally left out. the only person i know was sarah, and later XT. -.- the ppl there were friendly i must say, but im distant from them. :S BUT, thru time, i got to know more ppl, and i grew to love them. they are really a great bunch of ppl. :) and i also got to know God all over again. had lost touch with him after i graduated from pri. sch. i decided to accept God all over again and im really glad that i have SOMEONE who will always be there for me 24/7. :) praise the Lord! ^^

yea. and we played sit-on-the-ground captain's ball(isnt a very good idea, but oh well, we had fun) and handball. handball rocks totally man. i really loved it. most probably because i was better in handball. in handball, at least i can run ard. but when i play captain's ball, i feel VERY(capslock) immobile. i didnt feel good at all. and what's more, the air-con almost froze me to death! :S i got my VERY OWN bible le. very happy. i used to share one bible with my brother and sister. now i have my own! :D happy happy.

although i didnt study today, i feel that today had been really meaningful. there is much more to life than just studying. and i've finally come to know that. studying can be FUN too. :) we study for ourselves, and we also study for the Lord. soooo, must jiayou le! tonight must sleep early.

i think i better write till here. im totally sleepy. God bless. :)

(SHIANe,1:36 PM)

Sunday, September 04, 2005

haha~ shuxian i know you miss me right, so u want me to post. :P anyway, many days have passed since i last updated. but the most important thing is, I HAVE FINALLY TURNED 16! now waiting for shu's turn. lols.
chem and physics practicals also pass le. what's done cannot be undone, so hope all of us can do well for the written papers ok! ;) yupp. i didnt study at all today, and im feeling really guilty. but what's the use right. tmr have to study extra hard. sad. :( after tuition tmr, im still going to sarah's church. hope i dont feel left-put or anything. hurr. they are going to play captain's ball leh. im only good at being the goalkeeper. :X
sep hols going to sch for physics and chem la. wonder whether there is enough time left to study for the rest of the subjects or not. haha~ >_<
oh ya. i really wanna thank all those who had given me presents and well-wishes ya. shall not name everyone, but i really appreciate all the birthday wishes and etc. thanks a lot yea! i'll TRY to make sure i wont forget any of your birthdays. hehe~ :P
think i shall be writing till here. lucky i clean the comp of virus le. or else damn lag i also lazy to come and update. :P buhbye.

(SHIANe,3:31 PM)