I think i'm starting to update regularly again. Think that's pretty good, cos I wanna remember all the days of my life and not forget them. Yup. There was nothing special about the lessons for today, just knew that i lugged lots of books to school and went home without much books. Cos i used MAGIC. hurhur. For history lesson today, there wasn't any tiger~ And there would be no tiger till next week! WOO. It's more fun to have combined history classes with other classes. :D
Last lesson had been Literature. and we did group work. actually i was kinda reluctant to turn back and group with vicole and vicky, cos im afraid of the awkwardness. i really really HATE akwardness! hehe. but luckily, i managed to squeeze in a few words with them. and not be like, totally anti-social. hehe.
the problem with me is that, i usually can talk A LOT online with the ppl i know/dont know so well. but once i meet those ppl whom i dont know so well, i'll just like, pretend i dont know them. therefore ppl judge me as anti-social. :(
I had been really disappointed with myself, when icy came up to talk to me, and i just managed a quick "hi" before running off. and i really ran off. FAST. it's just that, i was afraid. the awkwardness of it all? i always tell myself that i must be more outgoing, blah, but i guess old habits can never change. it's a sad thing. seriously speaking, i dont like to be me. i try to like myself, but i can nv succeed. most of it boils down to my almost 0% confidence? i dont really have confidence in myself. and i dont know which is the true me. the lame and talkative me, or the quiet and anti-social me.
i am like, doing self-reflection? haha. after leaving bp(which is like a million years away), a new chapter of my life will begin, so i wanna do some self-reflection and find out the true me before i start afresh. get what i mean? alrrrite. think this entry is so stupid huh..? not really worth reading, but if you(whoever you are) did finish reading, then too bad for you. cos you should be spending your time reading other ppl's blogs. im just going to continue. ok. my friends only see one side of me, the lame and talkative side. yea. i THINK that's the real me. i really dont know.(SHIRLEY! gimme the webbbbbbbyy!)
i dont wanna write anymore. get depressed only. haha. :) still looking for the real me. or is there anything such as a "real me"? hmm.. well. if there is anything like that, help me search.
Last lesson had been Literature. and we did group work. actually i was kinda reluctant to turn back and group with vicole and vicky, cos im afraid of the awkwardness. i really really HATE akwardness! hehe. but luckily, i managed to squeeze in a few words with them. and not be like, totally anti-social. hehe.
the problem with me is that, i usually can talk A LOT online with the ppl i know/dont know so well. but once i meet those ppl whom i dont know so well, i'll just like, pretend i dont know them. therefore ppl judge me as anti-social. :(
I had been really disappointed with myself, when icy came up to talk to me, and i just managed a quick "hi" before running off. and i really ran off. FAST. it's just that, i was afraid. the awkwardness of it all? i always tell myself that i must be more outgoing, blah, but i guess old habits can never change. it's a sad thing. seriously speaking, i dont like to be me. i try to like myself, but i can nv succeed. most of it boils down to my almost 0% confidence? i dont really have confidence in myself. and i dont know which is the true me. the lame and talkative me, or the quiet and anti-social me.
i am like, doing self-reflection? haha. after leaving bp(which is like a million years away), a new chapter of my life will begin, so i wanna do some self-reflection and find out the true me before i start afresh. get what i mean? alrrrite. think this entry is so stupid huh..? not really worth reading, but if you(whoever you are) did finish reading, then too bad for you. cos you should be spending your time reading other ppl's blogs. im just going to continue. ok. my friends only see one side of me, the lame and talkative side. yea. i THINK that's the real me. i really dont know.(SHIRLEY! gimme the webbbbbbbyy!)
i dont wanna write anymore. get depressed only. haha. :) still looking for the real me. or is there anything such as a "real me"? hmm.. well. if there is anything like that, help me search.
(SHIANe,9:18 AM)