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Sunday, January 30, 2005


wow, it's been a million years since i last updated! O.o" haha. i had been really really really busy with tests, homework, tests, homework and tests and homework, and band. :p

so, i had returned from genting on 23rd jan, then proceeding with a terrible school life. yep, i shall not elaborate. :) for next week, im going to have a really packed schedule. :s monday: after sch, bethany home volunteer work till 5.30pm. tuesday: band after sch till 6 something. wednesday: a maths test, band after sch till 6 something. thursday: a maths test AGAIN, band after sch till 6 something. friday: nothing on. YAY! :D really hope that i can cope. :) i shall stop here. byee~

*you rock

(SHIANe,1:39 AM)

Thursday, January 20, 2005


heee, im back to update! :p i've been really really busy, tt's why i didn't update for so long in both open diary and blog. my days hadn't been really really good, yea. just failed my e maths test today and i gotta stay back with some other ppl tmr to do 10 year series outside HOD room. just like detention. sad life. :( there is chem, a maths tests tmr and chinese ting xie. BOOOOHOOOO. and there's band after EVERYTHING. im really really tired out, so decided to just come online and complain about everything. haha~

so the sec ones came for their first practice of the year for band. wells, really hope they enjoyed it(the percussionists especially) hehe. must really say a BIG welcome to lai cheng, wei en, chelsea, eunice, yu lian, christine and nadia(another nadia from sec 3) ahaha~ really enjoyed practice with them. :) yep. after tmr going to malaysia! yay! really wanna take a break after tmr. totally zonk out after chem test. hehe~ just wanna try my best. if i fail, at least i knew i did my best, if i pass, then good lor. :p yeah. guess i'll update till here. take care peeps. :)

(SHIANe,12:41 PM)

Saturday, January 15, 2005


it's finally finally FINALLY the weekend. i've been waiting for this time for almost 5 days. :p yep. the past few days had been really busy ones, and i almost went crazy at some point or another. :( ok, i'll update bout today first. today was the SLACKIEST day ever. first lesson was p.e, the girls played soccer. i was the goalkeeper, and i totally hated it. haha~ im like the worse goalkeeper ever? heh! so after p.e was 2 periods of english and CME. ms chong didnt come, so we had 3 FREE PERIODS! wheeee~ after the physics test was recess. after recess was another 2 free periods(for those taking express chinese) and form class before dismissal! gosh. so damn slack today. hehe~ i loved today. :x

so what happened yesterday? oh ya. nothing much except for baaaand. urgh. got scolded yesterday by siiir. bleh. band's participating in (wth) chingay. damn it la. why cant sir just let us take a break? asshole.! oopsie. haha~ yikes! so tired. i dont wanna type liao. buahaha~ byezZ.

(SHIANe,6:46 AM)

Wednesday, January 12, 2005


the quiz results came out, and i found it rather accurate. actually not rather. is very damnit accurate. =x

TOP THINKING STRENGTH : EMPATH
* By proximity, they can tune into the emotional state of others.
* They are often unaware of their own intuitive power.

"From infancy, the purely emotional Empath strength intuits the world around them. They feel so intensely about everything that others can be confused by the depth and range of their expression — from uncontrollable laughter to inconsolable tears; sometimes both at once. Empath responds quickly and personally to all and environment. For others it can be disconcerting, but for them emotionality is the throne upon which their one-of-a-kind intellect sits. When you know answers but can't explain how, cannibalistic self-doubt can gnaw and weaken confidence. Empaths often doubt their own emotion wisdom and try to be "logical" instead. And for these emotion-intellects it is tantamount to swimming against their own nature. Linear, step-by-step thinking must be taught to an Empath. In school, gold stars of former glory grades often turn into good grief by junior high. This is usually when their academic confidence plummets. Doubt can clip their potential's wings before they even attempt flight and before they test their unique intellectual capabilities. An Empath is often in the dark about their innate gifts." ...

TOP WORKING STRENGTH : SCINTILLATOR
  • They are easy-going, competent workers, whose potential for excellence and success often must be encouraged.
  • They are natural leaders who emphasize team camaraderie.
Dramatic and charismatic these larger-than-life and natural leaders improve the workplace upon entry. One common oversight in business is taking them at face-value rather than looking beyond at potential. Without encouragement, Scintillators may only do enough to "get by." As natural for them as bend to elbow, Scintillators read energy levels of others and react propitiously. From tone of voice, flush of face, sweaty palms, or general countenance and deportment can they interpret the general state of others. But then, it was Scintillator who brought the science of body language to the world's attention. Task-cutting and time-saving are their name's fame. If a shortcut is possible, turn the challenge over to a Scintillator. They'll find a way. Sometimes their creative laziness not only saves but pays dividends. As agile of mind as body, these individuals tend to have an innate artistic bent as though born to entertain and create. Success for these individuals is a given, when they make career choices that work with their nature rather than against it. There is always much more to Scintillator than meets the eye." ...

TOP EMOTING STRENGTH : SENTINEL
  • No pain is greater for them than betrayal.
  • They keep diaries or personal journals.
"A most common emoting style. Behind trademark reserve and alluring attractiveness is an individual who is hard to know and harder to love. Trust is the wall that divides. Whether Sentinel trust is an open or shut case depends on how each person has evolved and adjusted to three personality-typical determinants: language, loyalty, and new experiences. Characteristic of a Sentinel is a crane calm look of time-suspended stillness or fixed concentration. None other portrays mind-at-work like them. Others are often surprised at the thoroughness and depth delivered, when they do respond and reply. No thought, no word, no action is more painful to these sensitive beings than "good-bye." So ingrained is their conviction that all good must come to an end that Sentinel may not risk "hello." If by nature they are skeptical and by choice, reticent, then one question begs answer. Is there a casual relationship between reticence and the fact that Sentinel suffers internal degenerative illnesses more often than others? What is eating Sentinel from the inside out?" ...

so accurate sia. must go put in my open diary also. hehe.


(SHIANe,2:28 PM)

Tuesday, January 11, 2005


I think i'm starting to update regularly again. Think that's pretty good, cos I wanna remember all the days of my life and not forget them. Yup. There was nothing special about the lessons for today, just knew that i lugged lots of books to school and went home without much books. Cos i used MAGIC. hurhur. For history lesson today, there wasn't any tiger~ And there would be no tiger till next week! WOO. It's more fun to have combined history classes with other classes. :D

Last lesson had been Literature. and we did group work. actually i was kinda reluctant to turn back and group with vicole and vicky, cos im afraid of the awkwardness. i really really HATE akwardness! hehe. but luckily, i managed to squeeze in a few words with them. and not be like, totally anti-social. hehe.

the problem with me is that, i usually can talk A LOT online with the ppl i know/dont know so well. but once i meet those ppl whom i dont know so well, i'll just like, pretend i dont know them. therefore ppl judge me as anti-social. :(
I had been really disappointed with myself, when icy came up to talk to me, and i just managed a quick "hi" before running off. and i really ran off. FAST. it's just that, i was afraid. the awkwardness of it all? i always tell myself that i must be more outgoing, blah, but i guess old habits can never change. it's a sad thing. seriously speaking, i dont like to be me. i try to like myself, but i can nv succeed. most of it boils down to my almost 0% confidence? i dont really have confidence in myself. and i dont know which is the true me. the lame and talkative me, or the quiet and anti-social me.

i am like, doing self-reflection? haha. after leaving bp(which is like a million years away), a new chapter of my life will begin, so i wanna do some self-reflection and find out the true me before i start afresh. get what i mean? alrrrite. think this entry is so stupid huh..? not really worth reading, but if you(whoever you are) did finish reading, then too bad for you. cos you should be spending your time reading other ppl's blogs. im just going to continue. ok. my friends only see one side of me, the lame and talkative side. yea. i THINK that's the real me. i really dont know.(SHIRLEY! gimme the webbbbbbbyy!)

i dont wanna write anymore. get depressed only. haha. :) still looking for the real me. or is there anything such as a "real me"? hmm.. well. if there is anything like that, help me search.

(SHIANe,9:18 AM)

Monday, January 10, 2005


i've decided : my freak diet will only last during weekdays. or else i'll most probably die or something. hehe. or i'll suffer from an eating disorder!? *imagination running wild again* haha~ i really wanna lose weight. sad arh sad arh. haha~ a target to work towards! and i wanna improve my timing for my jogs. and 2.4km run also! jiayou~

(SHIANe,10:10 AM)

Sunday, January 09, 2005


haiz. sec four life is starting to get stressful. the first week was still pretty ok. UNTIL mrs poh annouced the dates of the e maths and a maths tests. eeeeeks! and physics test is nxt week too!

anyway, band life is also quite tough(for the juniors la, dont think i have pretty much to do :D) there are like so many band pracs, cant really take a break or something. aiiiyyyyooo. and the e maths and a maths homework! poh poh wants to flood us. haha~ so lazy to write some more. OH YA. im on a freak diet. milo for breakfast, papaya for lunch and no dinner. li hai maaaah? hhaha. byez!

*im not good enough.

(SHIANe,8:46 AM)

Wednesday, January 05, 2005


eeks. the first day of school i had gone a little later, then all the good seats were already taken up. -.-" which meant that i got stuck at THAT f*cking first row corner seat! damn it man. im so not used to the first row cos i've been sitting at the last row since dont know when. what's worse, yeeshan and siewfong, and the ppl that me and huiying more familiar with sitting at almost the other end of the classroom! sad case arh. :(
anyway, ya, 2 days had passed. there's band tmr! double arghs. lemme see now, there are like a couple of tests coming up soon, just that i dont know when. haiz. haha~ aaaand, i pierced my ears(NOTE: mel: im no longer a "rare gem" LOL). what else. oh ya, i TRIMMED my hair till it's ultra short. heh! look like guy. SHUAI SIA~ :p ok. think that's all. hehe.

(SHIANe,8:34 AM)

Saturday, January 01, 2005


happy 2005 everyone!! guess what, the first "blur" thing that i did on 2005 is to delete a VERY special new year message!!! ARGH ARGH ARGH! i just wanna kill myself! upon deleting did i realise and i was like "AHHHHHH!" but it was too late. *sobs* haha. nvm, at least THAT special message was the first message of the year for 2005!. so happy. ^_^ o levels ahead. =s =P ARGH ARGH ARGH. once again, happy 2005. =]

(SHIANe,5:35 PM)